It is Monday. I am retired and I am finally not teaching in someone else’s classroom.
I now must face my own demons and begin to write. I love writing these quick posts. I love writing about my classroom or someone else’s classroom. Real events and experiences are easy to place on the page before me.
But I have stories that are also rattling around in my head. I get them started and then I get stuck. I have always been able to say it is my busy teaching schedule that has kept me from really working on this “real” writing. Now-that is not true. I have worked hard to push that busy schedule aside and open up time and space for words.
The holy void – as my husband calls it. The stepping off into the unknown. Today I take that step. I am putting my seat on the chair and writing. I am not doing laundry, making bread or shoveling more snow. Writing comes first.
I realize so clearly as a writer I need to push past that fear of “I have no story to tell” or the “what if my characters won’t talk to me”. I hid in all the how to writing books I could find over the last few weeks as I finished up a few teaching jobs here and there. They all came down to one big statement.
Just write! Sit down and write!
Wish me luck – I really want to finish the story that I began some time ago!
I am off to do “real” writing!
( Yes, I know all writing is real writing – but for me this step into fiction is big. It is for me the real writing I have been wanting to do for so long.)