Breathing in and out –
Relaxing muscles (including my brain)
Holding my body still but not tense just relaxed
Breath in and out –
Building patiences in my life is interesting. It’s meaning can be expressed in different ways
- an ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay
- quiet, steady perseverance; even-tempered care; diligence
I know there are some who might say I have a lot of patiences they could see it in my teaching but internally I struggle with the quiet and steady perseverance. It shows up most when I am learning something new. I have lots of patiences for others not for myself. I have written about it many times. The learning of new skills like drawing, or knitting. I want to be good at what I do now, not a year or a more from now.
At times I wonder if I am just lazy and don’t want to put in the hard work that it take to improve ones skills. I get frustrated with myself easily and want to walk away from the task at hand – yoga (those darn hard poses), the drawing of the coral bells still sitting on my desk, or the quilt started long ago staring at me from the corner of my office. All of it takes patiences and a willingness to stay with it.
If with a teacher or mentor I can control that impatiences a bit more. I can push myself to stay in that hard yoga pose or stay at my desk in art class and draw. (ok -well something I am the student getting to many drinks and going to the bathroom but hey I learned that skill from thousands of my past students – they taught me well.)
As of Sunday I am now _____ years old. I have a few years before I am seventy ( Oh, My Gosh – I need to hurry up and get busy with a few things time is passing!)
So now it is Monday – day one into my new birth year. I am setting a goal once again. The goal is to deal with this impatiences of mine. The goal is to act/do even if it feels uncomfortable. Instead of looking at the skill I want to learn I am looking at my behavior and how it might be slowing my down or even stopping me. My statement to myself is to begin and to stay with it even if I free frustrated or restless.
So today I have been on the yoga mat and did two of the poses I hate. I did not stay in them long but I did them. I figure it is a tiny step. I was on the mat and I pushed myself a little bit. Tiny Steps/ Tiny habits!
My next step is to face my drawing table – to stay with it even when it is taking a long time. Patiences is what I am posting on the wall where I work. I have a feeling that if I can over come my wanting to get up and walk away I might actually improve on the skills I am wanting to learn.
So today I am starting to learn to be steady – breath in and out – stay with a task just a little be longer!
(I am also working today on patiences and distraction. My daughter went into the hospital this morning to be induced. Our little Grandson is on his way. So I am learning to be steady and calm today while we wait for the phone call. It might not come until tomorrow so it is a wait. I will let you know how it goes – I am off draw my clematis in the garden and be calm, steady, even tempered and diligent!)
Wish me luck!
P.S. – Tuesday am ——– I am really working on the ability or willingness to suppress restlessness – baby is oh so slowly making his way into the world! So no baby yet!