It is Tuesday and I have not been writing. Where are the days going? How did I manage to get posts written each week when I was working full time? How is it that I can not seem to get a post up every week now that I am retired?
I missed last week all together. It was well past 11:00 pm when I popped my eyes open and realized it was Tuesday and I had not posted. I stretched out under my warm heavy covers in my mid western bed and wondered how did I miss this again? Do I crawl out from under the covers and into the cold dark house to write? No, even if I could manage something it was past midnight on the east coast and the posting would be closed. I let it go slid deeper under the covers and drifted back to sleep.
Now it is Tuesday again, one week later – it is 1:00 pm and I have 10 people coming at 3:30 for a book club meeting (I have not finished reading the book), I have four more square I promised I would get on the baby quilt I am working on and also two new assignments for my drawing class. Oh and some computer work to follow up on from my part time job as a testing coordinator and garden planning to do with seeds to order. All of this is not going to get done today.
It is clear I am still over booking my days – just like when I was teaching. My to do list was always longer than the hours of the day. I was sure that was just due to the many tasks teachers have to do. It could not have been my fault.
Ah, but here I am again with to many things on my to do list and it is not the fault of the many teaching tasks. I just get so excited about things I want to do and then over book myself. I am indeed at fault here!!
So I stopped, took a deep breath and decided to write you a short note. I wanted to be sure I posted this week. Then I pulled out my calendar and took each task and gave them a day and time. I am slotting out my days just like my lesson plan book in the classroom. It was important in my classroom to write everything down so everything got done and it is still important to write things down in my “new” life. A old yet new behavior change for me.
I am including the tasks I want to do but I need to hold space for my writing as well. It is also a task I want to do but it appears that my writing is what is getting lost in the hustle and bustle of my weeks. I now find I must create a special time each week for writing my blog posts, for writing in my personal journal, for writing stories.
There really is enough time – I just need to get organized and use those old teacher skills to find the time.
My one little word (phrase) this year is – the auspicious wonder that lies at the heart of making! Clearly, I am making and my heart is engaged in all of it and there is wonder to be found but just a little order might help me feel less stressed about not getting to the things I care about.
So, I welcome my new 2019 calendar as my “lesson” plan book for the year. Taking time to plot out space for each of the artful tasks I am engaged in so I can relax and enjoy each of them without worrying what is not getting done.