Ok so I really wanted to post today! I have a post started that is harder to write than I can do at 9:15 p.m. after a busy day. The detail that is needed to express what I am think is just to much right now. It is not that it is bad or hard, well kind of hard but it is a post with more emotional ties than I wish to step into now.
This is the post I started last Tuesday night about 9:00 p.m. I never finished it – I was not able to focus after a few busy but nice days. I was unsettled but did not know why. I went to bed only to wake up about 11:00 p.m. hurting all over. I placed this pain to the rain, arthritis and stripping wallpaper the day before. Then returned to sleep only to wake up at 4:00 a.m. with neck pain, jaw pain and pain running down both arms and across my chest. A quick google to heart attack symptoms for woman and I knew I was in trouble.
We were at the hospital by 5:00 and by 10:15 I was admitted, resting, watching vital signs on the monitor and the new owner of a small stent in my heart. We were grateful before measure for a quick thinking and working team of doctors and nurses. I had all the right symptoms for heart attack but no high blood pressure, no high cholesterol, and no high heart rate. I eat a good diet, am thin and exercise but have a family history that tells the story.
After three days in the hospital I am home watching my garden (I am told I can pick my tomatoes in the raised beds), reading, resting and trying to make sense of what happened. A busy week of projects, plans and events all stopped, a small trip cancelled and plans for a large garden re do for the fall on hold. (My guess is spring is a great time to re do a garden.)
It is amazing how life can change in a moment. A moment we can’t see coming but there it is. We are taking it a day at a time. Slowly restarting our life – new medicine to take when I was taking nothing before, lots of doctors follow up appointments and rehab to get everything safely moving again.
It is a shock but after it all I can only say I am pleased to live in a city and country where help is not far away. A place where medicine this there (even at the high cost) when needed and where family and friends hold a safe place for me to heal.
I am grateful today because I am here.